Another year gone

My Birthday next week. Not sure how I feel about this to be honest. There are so many things I haven’t done and time is going by faster by the year.
I’m just worried I’ll reach 50 without doing much at all. Everything I want to do involves money, money I do not have. At least I have a nice place of my own now. Just ignore the fact the heating isn’t working.
Have been invited out to a colleagues Birthday meal next week, I mentioned it was mine the next day and she said we should celebrate mine too. That's nice :)
My mum did the whole pretending to forget it was my Birthday next week, I hate it when my parents do things like that. It's really not funny.